Slightly confusing signs by Rebecca

I need direction.

I’m constantly searching for it in my life but I seem to lack the ability to stay interested in any one thing for a period of more than 6 months to a year.

I realised this first when I left school half way through 6th form. I had decided I was going to do something with computers and got myself accepted to the Waikato Polytech with big ideas.

Luckily the course I did was only 6 months long because by the end of it I’d really had enough of sitting in a class room, even if it was hands on.

Then I moved to Wellington with my partner and got sick.

It was just over a year later that I realised I might actually want to go to university.

I had been reading my old maths books (?!) and was quite interested in pharmaceuticals and thought I might like to be a pharmacist. But, because I had left school with nothing but School Cert I wasn’t going to be able to get into University until I was at least 20.

So I did Victoria University’s Certificate of University Proficiency, which is pretty much University Entrance.

I really shouldn’t have been that surprised that by the end of this 6 month course I couldn’t face 3 years of study and so instead I got a job.

Wanting it all right now

It comes down to being from Generation Y. We want it all, right now and we assume that if we are good at what we do we will reap the rewards automatically. I want to do things my way. I want to minimise the use of paper. I want to be relaxed in my surroundings. Unfortunately our bosses are not of the same generation and often value long term commitment, age and ‘the boys club’ a lot higher.

Having only worked in office’s in the public sector I can’t be sure that’s true throughout though.

So what now?

My love of surveys, personality tests and divining all stem from my need for answers. Answers to questions like what makes me unique and what should I do with my life? I know it sounds overly cheesy but I want to be special! :D

As of now this blog is my project. Who knows, I may fail and get bored in a years time (like the bass lessons I took, and the languages I want to learn). Or I may find my direction in life. Two blog posts I stumbled upon today may provide another step in the path “The World’s Largest Blog Niche and Topic Idea List” and “How to Choose the Perfect Blogging Topic”.

I love music, design, television, movies, food, photos, writing (which funnily enough I hated at school but always got good marks in), I have a special interest in colitis due to my illness, I’m alternative in my approach to fashion and I’m a bit of a greeny/human rights/animal rights supporter.

Any ideas?

I’ll take all the help I can get.